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I'm feeling so betrayed, when I tell you something it's meant to stay with you, you shouldn't talk to anyone else about what we just said. But of course you spoke to my mother. Today she came to me and asked how it went, and i realised just then that you talked to her. How could you? You, if anyone in this family had my trust, now you just showed me who you really are. 

 

She is asking me why I never tell you guys about anything about my self, it's easy, you let me down, all of you and I don't trust you at all. Her other argument is that we're a family. It's true but you have changed, all of you. You're not the family I once knew. You're all strangers to me, I don't love you at all but I need you and the only thing I want is to coexist beside you but nothing more. you're not my family any more but I don't have the guts to tell you because I'm afraid that you will make my life a living hell 'cause I can't leave you yet. As soon as possible I will leave. 

 

I'm betrayed and the only thing I can do to survive is to close my self from you and focus on my own surviving.